What I've done right is taking my dietary changes step by step... Vegan was established before I got rid of gluten and then soy. Weight has been dropping. I'm down 24 pounds in approx 8 weeks, but I've had more potato chips in the past two weeks than I've had in the past three years I've lived in my house.
So, here's the next change- all raw and all natural. I've chucked the non-natural make up and done a re-haul in the bathroom and kitchen. I'm going for it.
I was overwhelmed with it today- I felt like potato chips and dwelling on something that needed some of my attention and I gave it too much attention because I was nervous and I was avoiding going to Albany and doing the food prep I needed to for tomorrow.
Truth of the matter was that I felt overwhelmed. I had a fridge full of food and a list of multi ingredient recipes that gave me nightmare flashbacks to the brendan brazier book and spending hours in the kitchen to make one recipe (incredibly delicious recipe, but still- I have a lot more to do besides slaving over the blender and salad shooter). I felt resentful towards these recipes and the people who gave them to me- "don't they know how busy I am? Don't they know that most of us have jobs and bills and laundry?" I didn't get into the kitchen until 10:51, but by 12:30 I had three meals made, dishes done and not only planned the following three days of meals, but rearranged my refrigerator so that the ingredients for each day are grouped.
I was stoked. I came upstairs, hung laundry, changed sheets and caught up on some things I've been meaning to listen to. It's late, but I feel far better than I did four hours ago.
It really does boil down to just making ourselves do the things we fear or dread rather than waiting to feel like it.
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